NOTE: The girls and I have been moving and are still moving. I didn’t have internet access last week but WILL begin posting again!
I don’t think Mom got the chance to post my blog last week. Maybe she did.
Either way, I’m sure it was horribly written.
Only a couple more days left in this month.
I have to say that I’m pretty disappointed in myself. I was hoping to have an entire draft of this new novel written, and I just haven’t gotten to that point.
I’ve let a lot of things distract me.
Boys. Guys that don’t like me, even if I don’t like them then decide to like them then they decide not to like me. Whatever. I hate dating and I’ve realized I’ll be forever alone. Sometimes I don’t give two shits about that fact, other days, like today, I kind of do. Aloney McGony.
Jobs/Lack of money/Being screwed over. I finally started a new job. Hopefully I can handle the stress of it. But anything is better than being as poor as I have been. Thank God for Mom’s food storage. Also my old landlord has been trying to cheat me and my sister out of a small amount of money. I’ve come to realize he must do this with all his tenants. May end up being a small claim’s court issue.
Moving. Myself and moving Mom. It’s taken a big part of my energy. But I’m so happy to see Mom in a house of her own, that it’s totally worth it.
My biggest issue has been insecurities.
I don’t remember when I lost my self confidence, if it happened overnight, or if it was just something that has slowly happened over the years. Either way, it’s really killed my writing. I can’t seem to get out of it.
But I will say this:
I get lovely notes from my lovely agent every few days, and it helps. Even just a little. Sometimes being happy, and writing, and all that other jazz, is just focusing on the good in life. Even if it seems like there isn’t a lot.
I’m just a giant baby bird right now. And soon I think I’ll get out of this slump and go back to being happy and confident and blah blah blah.
Either way, I just have to keep writing. KEEEP GOOOOING!