moving with strength through adversity? CHECK!
When it comes to writing, I am a perfectionist. Nothing is ever good enough. The sentences are never tight enough, the structure is never solid enough, the pace is never steady enough. I have been known to spend an entire week on one paragraph.
But I wonder sometimes if my perfectionism is really just insecurity. It’s a good line, saying that I’m a perfectionist when someone asks why I haven’t published yet. It’s true that I’ve met with a few agents and editors and I’ve never actually been rejected, just asked to revise and resubmit. But that revision…I can’t ever get it to a place where I can actually say I’m proud of it. I’ve never reached the point where I can say, “This is it. This is as good as I can make it.” It’s always, “Something is wrong. I don’t know what it is, but something isn’t right. I can’t show this yet, it needs work.” Then I spend months, no, at this point I’ve spent years trying to figure out what it is that’s wrong.
However, if I could be brave…if I could just be brave enough to show my writing to others as is…maybe they could help. Maybe these things that having me panicking could be fixed with a couple of sentences by someone much more talented than myself.
This is why a good critique group is so important. Finding those that can help, inspire, and keep you on a deadline is vital to success for people like me. If you’ve been struggling, a good critique group could be exactly what you need. And if you’re lucky enough to be heading to WIFYR this year (I’m so jealous!) then be on the lookout. Many phenomenal groups have been formed there.