This is about my one millionth VD.
And for the first time in a long, long time and I am going to be a-okay with not getting one love letter or love card or box of chocolates. A nice place to be, actually.
So–about writing.
That’s what we’re doing here today. And every day we post, for that matter.
First–I think some of you were going to post something for today. Hop to it, Lovers! We’re waiting to read your schtuff!
And also I am going to post something today about SEX.
Yes, SEX.
Because guess why?
Because here’s why.
When I started this new book that I’m getting ready to send to my Secret Agent Steve, I thought–and actually announced to my fellow writers and daughters, “This book will have sex in it.”
That’s what I said.
“This book will have sex in it.”
I said it with pride and a little bit of surprise.
Side note: I have one person who is extremely worried that I have sold my soul to Satan for all the money I have made because of writing sexy stuff and hard stuff and dark stuff and stuff stuff. I do hope my soul is worth way more than I’ve gotten because we are barely scraping by. But . . . perhaps that is another post.
So back to the other thing. I said, “This book will have sex in it.”
My bestie Cheri said, “Okay.”
My other bestie, Rick, grinned at me.
Kyra said, “Cool. Me, too. I’m gonna have sex in my book.”
I said, “What do you know of sex?”
She said, “And drinking and drugs.”
I said, “What do you know of drinking and drugs?”
She said, “I can ask around, you know, Mom?”
Little did I know that I would need to ask around, too.
I’ve got the draft done (and the rewrite very close to being done) and I don’t have one sex scene. Not one! I do have some sexy scenes (I think). Or else they are way depressing scenes.
Anyway, I do have scenes in the book, but NO sex.
Dang it. No soul selling.
(Dear Heavenly Father,
I love my soul. I love You. Very, very much.
I will do only what the story requires.
But You know that.
Love,
Carol.”)
So, try as I might, I have not been able to write anything more than some nice, depressed, kissing scenes. One girl. Two boys. But not at the same time.
(Sigh.)
My good friend Jandy Nelson will have to write all the edgy, sexy-ish stuff. I just don’t know what I’m doing.
And the story, really, never took me in that direction.
The truth is, I have tried to stay true to my story and to my soul.
For me, that has always been what my stories are about. The truth as I saw it.
Even when it meant neighbors telling me they’d never let their kids read my books. Even when it meant that I’d get a letter or two about people who wanted me to be careful about my soul.
BTW– look at this:
Sold . . . Souled
Hmmm.
(Sigh again) This is as close to sex as I will ever get.
In my writing. And in my life, also.
So there.
I’m off (later) to buy myself a box of chocolates and then spend the day with my girls and spritzing Fabreeze around my closed-in house (Come on, Spring!).
A best Love Day to you all.
And Happiest Writing, too!!!!!
Love,
Your Lover Girl
Throwing Up Words 